Nieuwe shoot enzo
Tsja het was zegmaar de bedoeling om de tekst in de plaatjes te doen maar dat progamma werkt niet mee -_-'
I can't do this anymore, I don't want this anymore. The bad voice my head have to go..
No I won't because I am you. NO! GO AWAY! Who am I kidding she never goes away.
And you don't want me to. You want me to stay. Because without me you're nothing but a weak person who isn't strong enough to fake a damn smile.
My boyfriend was with me today he said he wanted to go see a movie. But when he came in he looked serious at me and said: "We need to talk" Just at that moment I wanted to sit on my bed, but I dropped on the floor.
"What's wrong?" He has tears in his eyes.
"I can't do this anymore.."
"What are you talking about.?"
"Don't you see it? You're so si.."
"NO I'M NOT!"
"Everytime I'm not around I'm scared that you will kill yourself, or you will just die.."
"Why are you saying that?"
You know that's not true, YOU. ARE. FAT. I know the voice doesn't lie.
"You can't see it, can you?"
He tries to hug me but I just stand there. Can't say anything.
"I still love you.." He whispered in my ear. Still not hugging back.
"Come on just say something to me!"
NO YOU WON'T
"You still won't talk to me? Well fine, all I want for you is that you will be better but.."
"YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT!"
come on don't let him ruin our friendship
"I AM NOT SICK! I'M JUST TRYING TO BE ** PERFECT!"
"There's nothing wrong with perfect but you are not perfect.."
"I KNOW I'M TRYING TO BE!"
"YOU KNOW WHAT? AS SOON AS YOU ADMIT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM YOU CAN COME BACK TO ME!"
He don't get it, he doesn't want to be perfect. You should be happy he isn't around you anymore, now you can do even more to be perfect. He was just jealous. Now go and check yourself in the mirror. But I don't want to..
Just check the mirror. NO!
YOU WILL CHECK THE DAMN MIRROR! I don't want to fight this anymore..
Do you see al the fat?
Yes..
Well you know what you have to do..
But I don't want to..
If you don't you're wasting my time and than I will leave..
Instead of listening to the voice I walk to the kitchen. I grab every bag of chips I can find and start to eat everything I can find. Two hours later all the junkfood in the house are gone.